Lately I’ve been wondering if I made the right decision. Did I waste my time going to this school? Am I making the wrong decision to get a doctorate in a field people don’t value or care about? I’ve never questioned my role as a composer (ability, sure, we all do). But I can’t help but hear the voices of family and teachers before college, who resoundingly said what a worthless degree I’d be pursuing, if I went into composition.
I know it’s normal to doubt one’s vocation. When I decided to go into composition, I didn’t know how it would work out. All I knew is that this was the path I had to take. “Help my unbelief!”